ckp

Keep It Simple Stupid

2012-02-15T13:45:00.000-08:00

really?

2012-02-14T03:09:00.000-08:00

the other day at work a served a couple guys, probably in their early/mid 20's. Brother's i'm guessing. I served them as I would serve any of my customers, with amazing hospitality ;) haha. Brought the bill out when they were finished, swiped a visa through, said my "thank you's" and "have a good evening's." Grabbed the visa slip to settle their cheque and strangely enough, there had been a name & phone number. It was nice gesture, but also a surprising one. He didn't show no interest or hardly even talked. You just never know what people are thinking..

On another note, half an hour before mid-night my phone starts ringing. An unfamiliar number, but a very familiar name.

me: Hello?
?: Hello?
me: Hi?
(a trembling voice answers..)

?: Do you know who this is?
me: ******?
******: Yeah...

1 minute later and the conversation is over.

Really?

There's always a bright side.

2012-02-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

Don't let anything stop you from seeing that. Just have trust in yourself.
Be, because you want to be, have the right to your own thoughts, own them
but in a respectable manner. See things from the other persons view,
look at things but take off those criticizing eyes. Look for beauty rather than
flaws, maybe you'll find something you didn't know you were looking for.

Self Promotion

2012-02-07T00:50:00.000-08:00

Reasons for loving you

2012-02-06T10:58:00.001-08:00

Gr10/'06 scratch art

2012-02-06T00:29:00.001-08:00

suckker for love

2012-02-05T14:37:00.000-08:00

anything that gets in our way. We over come it.

13

2012-02-01T00:29:00.001-08:00

testing: do ignore, thank you.

2012-01-26T19:07:00.001-08:00

Follow @vparto

free $25, true story

2012-01-26T00:24:00.000-08:00

oh, my.

2012-01-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

2012-01-12T00:44:00.001-08:00

Siblings

2012-01-08T17:11:00.001-08:00

What love is

2011-12-31T13:29:00.001-08:00

Alumni

2011-12-31T13:25:00.001-08:00

You Da One

2011-12-21T22:21:00.001-08:00

Dance is always going to be my number one. No matter how many
times i leave, i always end up coming back.

...says the graphic designer in the making (hahahaha)

photoshop x illustrator x indesign

2011-12-21T21:29:00.001-08:00

2011-12-20T22:30:00.000-08:00

Did I mention..

2011-12-14T00:42:00.001-08:00

how great Lauryn was live?

Thanks for taking me b.

Damn

2011-12-08T23:41:00.000-08:00

you make the biggest difference in my day.
I let it happen. But i'm not nervous about it either.

This is kind of a crazy feeling. Its kind of different.
You make the biggest difference.

BBD, SWV & Jon B

2011-11-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

All under one roof. A lot of their songs where prime just as I was about to be born. I think I was the youngest one there, felt so out of place, but it didn't matter because I loved being there. That might have been one of my favorite concerts and to be honest, I probably knew only half the songs. 3 rows away from the stage, a very intimate venue, and a crazy sound system. Watching all three artist perform was quite a show. You knew it was a 90's show because they don't perform like new artist do. They're so much more heart-felt, and honestly have a lot more swag. I'm so serious when I say that. When I saw Jon B on stage, my goodness he KNOWS how to work the crowd, most definitely the ladies though. He know's his sick but so does everybody else. SWV finally got up on stage and that's when people started getting out of their seats to just party right up front. Sisters with voices still got it. Top two favorite performances by them, of course, Rain & Weak. You should have seen all the 30 year old's go crazy hahaha. Then Bell Biv Devo came out. Honestly you don't see performances like that anymore. BBD still had little choreographed parts to their performance, and watching do it like it was stilll the 80's/90's was sooo sick. I didn't know they could still rock like that. Haha but they're healthy and said they'd be coming back soon, but this time they'd be back with New Edition. Ahh that's going to be so good. Honestly, everyone still performed like they were in their primes. I never thought I'd ever get that chance to see SWV perform Weak LIVE, Bell Biv Devo Poison LIVE, and Jon B They don't know LIVE.. damn it was amazing.

Oh and I forgot to mention, Jon B even performed Calling on you. You know, the track that Drake sampled for Take care, or on that album known as Good Ones Go. Ahh Jon B is sooo sick. I honestly didn't even know I was going.

My cousin and I were texting each other about snowboarding. Then he asked me if I wanted to go on Friday. He said something about SWV, BBD, and Jon B, but I didn't get how that made any sense to snowboarding, but I went with it. Then he's said he'd pick me up at 7 the night before, because the show started at 8. That's when I got confused and I finally clued in. Haha I clearly wasn't paying attention when I was reading that, but oh well. I'm glad I got to go to that. Such a crazy experience that really did leave me smiling.

Love 90's music.

TY: Number 34

2011-11-12T09:55:00.001-08:00

Looking back at old "TY" post #28 triggered a thought about this quote here. "The time to make up your mind about people is never," following that how could I possible make up my mind about myself. We are all constantly changing. I know I'm not the person I was 2 years ago. I think the point here is to truly believe in yourself in everything you do.
I watched a lady gaga interview a while back ago. Back while she was in school she was always the odd one out, weird, and alone. She mentioned how she just liked being her, and people couldn't accept that. And at the beginning of her career she never truly believed she was a singer. Everyday she told herself "I am a star" or "I am a singer".. or something like that. Point is she didn't always believe it at first. But the more she told herself she was the more she lived the life of being what she said she was going to be. And now she's exactly that, while still being her weird self.

I still don't fully believe I'm a graphic designer. I mean, I would definitely call myself an Amateur but at least I know that. I'm on my way to being a Graphic Designer, and that's all that maters to me. I'm a student, growing, everyday. Learning, from everyone around me, and through my own mistakes. I'm a daughter, sister, friend, and a lover. I'm a lady in love with the whole thought of "Love", every aspect of Art, someone who appreciates kindness, and a big believer in the difference between what right and wrong.

I'm still finding myself, and probably will keep doing so until the day I die. But right now I know who I am, and I'm proud of that. Not everybody knows who they are. Those are the people who act differently in front of different people. Change them selves to please other people, because they care too much about what other people think rather than just doing what they want to do. I just hope those people figure it out, before their friends do.

"The most important thing in life is to find yourself, know who you are at all times, and stand by that for the rest of your life."

thank you jj

Branded

2011-11-10T06:36:00.001-08:00

ft. Nicki

2011-11-09T10:01:00.000-08:00

Designed by: Yours Truly

2011-11-07T16:25:00.001-08:00

ckp

DANCE (A$$)

2011-11-07T11:41:00.000-08:00

ckp x Lando Wilkins @ BLV22.

I'm not sure how many times I've watched this, but I can't get over it.
This man just knows his musicality

Love, Eat and sometimes Pray

2011-10-17T23:57:00.001-07:00

Another Sunday mass with Sherwin.

Slowly I get better that this "Church" thing.
It's hard when I don't end up going on a weekly basis. But at least I go.

I remember when church used to be routine. Everybody (when I say 'everybody' I mean my 'whole family', and when I say 'whole family' I mean when my family used to still be a family) would wake up early Sunday Morning, get in their dress clothes and get to I.C. Delta while the church bells were still ringing. Pretty good for Filipino time. Then right after church we would go straight to DIM SUM and have our regular lunch, the same restaurant for probably 5 years.

Church was a regular thing. Now every time I step in a church I feel like a stranger. I still don't eat the "body of Christ" because I never experienced going through communion. I feel like I'm pretending I belong there.

Ever since my parents stopped taking us I have thought about religion very differently. My philosophy has been set on "everything happens for a reason" and has been that way since.

Faith is what keep's religious people believing. Not that I don't have faith in my life, but I have faith strictly in myself. I understand that good is bound to be followed by bad, not all the time, but the two just go together.

It's almost like how I have fully let myself believe in Ancient Aliens...

Actually maybe that is a big part of why my views of religion is different as well.

I do believe that many years ago extra terrestrials have landed on earth and left landmarks such as the Egyptian Pyramids, as well as so many other "un-explainable" monuments that were built. I may not truly know for sure, but I fully believe in my heart that what we thought were gods, were really some sort of higher power from up above. It just makes so much sense once you see all the facts. It's hard not to believe it.

But no matter what I believe, I will never banish nor turn down the Lord. If Sherwin ever asks me to go to church with him, I will not say no.

Love, Eat & sometimes Pray.

Employed

2011-10-14T14:38:00.000-07:00

http://www.printatlance.com/

My Graphic Design Career blooms here

2011-10-14T01:57:00.000-07:00

luuuuuuuuu

i love you more

2011-10-10T02:20:00.001-07:00

I'm so serious.

Love does crazy things to a person.

I love you so much.

The best feeling is..

knowing you feel the

exact same way.

Stay and don't change.

Please.

Just grow with me,

not apart from.

2011-10-09T14:57:00.000-07:00

1st week back

2011-10-04T23:05:00.001-07:00

Yay!.....ZzzZzz

tired already.

9

2011-10-03T00:22:00.000-07:00

come close

2011-09-27T00:24:00.000-07:00

Are we living in a dream world?
Are your eyes still green girl?
I know your sick and tired of arguing
But you can't keep it bottled in
Jealousy, we got to swallow it
Your heart and mind baby follow it
Smile, happiness you could model it
And when you feel opposite
I just want you to know
Your whole being is beautiful
I'ma do the best I can do
Cause I'm my best when I'm with you

Come close to me baby
Let your love hold you
I know this world is crazy
What's it without you

______________________

"I can't believe we came so close to just ending like that"

Neither can I.

I've made that mistake of letting go too early being so heated in the moment. But I've learned from the past and I'm glad I'm smarter with you. Told you I'm not letting go nor threatening to let go unless I knew that's what I really wanted. As long as I'm in love with you no heated fight could make me let go. Our relationship is on another level. How do I know? When I see that you're willing to let go of something that wouldn't be worth dealing with, without me even asking to do so. I know you're in love with me.

Your actions are beginning to speak louder than your words.
(that's in the best way possible)

Would you rather..(pt.2)

2011-09-26T08:51:00.001-07:00

1) me embarrass you
2) or hurt you?

Would you rather..

2011-09-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

1) Get hurt physically

2) Or emotionally?

..One.

I feel so lady

2011-09-18T11:11:00.000-07:00

Finished the semester! Off for two weeks, and a 2 week break is well deserved! Grinding out this last two weeks was crazy. So many sleepless nights staying up to do projects plenty of nights in a row, with the help of red bull. Skipping so many meals because there was simply no time. Going to school 3 days a week, and working 3-4 day's a week. I thought that was rough..

Next semester starting Oct I'll be going to school 5 days a week, and working 2. Fck me. I know this quarters classes are going to have an even heavier load than the last. But TIME MANAGEMENT is all it is. Absolutely no space for procrastination. Must always be on top of things because I cannot afford to be behind in anything. Sorry B but we might go weeks without seeing each other. Maybe..

But i'm ready for this =D

Lol

2011-09-18T10:50:00.000-07:00

He couldn't keep his eyes open in the last picture, so this is what he did for the next one lol.

My baby's been my neighbor for almost almost a month now. We've been too busy to each each other all the time so I think it works out that way. But at times it gets hella convenient :)

1st time meeting your entire family everyone seemed very pleased to meet me. Even his dad was introducing me to people without Sherwin around haha. Pretty sure I don't remember everyone's names but that will happen through time. Next up, he gets to meet my entire family.. all at once muahaha. I have a lot of older guy cousins. It'll be fine though

He loves me

2011-09-17T10:05:00.000-07:00

content

2011-09-17T00:24:00.001-07:00

#poser

2011-09-11T03:58:00.001-07:00

Perfect

2011-09-11T03:56:00.001-07:00

Diego Garcia is in town for 3 weeks from LA. Monkey King (Jeff Tam's shop) is booked for 10 months. I lucked out.

Thank you brother for introducing me to Jeff.
Thank you Jeff for giving me Diego.
Thank you Diego for giving Peter Taylor's piece justice.
Thank you Peter for allowing me to the rights of your work.

I couldn't be more happier with this piece.

3.5 hours under the needle.
This is staying with me for life.

worthy

2011-09-09T01:47:00.000-07:00

i feel as if subliminally i ask myself every day what my worth is.
because from there that's when i can compare what i have with
what i deserve.

i don't know what I'm worth. I'm my worst critic.
but some one's worth should be calculated from their
"lowest common denominator".. if you catch my drift.

so what am i really worth?

I don't know.
not right now

kooks came back just when I needed them

2011-09-09T00:45:00.001-07:00

let yourself just be

2011-09-06T20:13:00.000-07:00

brb,

i'm busy.

"Creativity is freedom..

2011-09-03T14:35:00.000-07:00

Or, creativity is the absence of fear. Not being afraid to approach something and making a mistake.” -Erykah Badu

"Goodmorning love"

2011-08-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

there's nothing else I want out of this relationship.

It's all there.

Keep loving me. You really are making me better.

1st for everything

2011-08-27T12:01:00.000-07:00

=\ didn't realize how much you had to drink

haha I wish I was able to really really take care

of you, rather than my weak drunk ass attempt.

Can't believe how close you're going to live to me.

Almost neighbors, well.. if i consider Ed my

neighbor, then you are most definitely my neighbor.

speaking of Ed, last night's 90's party..

I thought everybody would be dressed up.

Would have been dope if everybody was

just jamming to the music. Literally like house-party.

All good though, I got my high on, & so did the bday boy.

btw: MAJOR PARTY FOUL to the unknown neighbor

to dropped the fattest J that didn't even make a 2nd

round. My heart sank as my weed drowned. What

a waste!!!!!!

Oh & i'm booked for Sept 7th!

Stoked & scared.

Groupie Love x SRYENT @ mirage

2011-08-22T11:45:00.001-07:00

Moscato & China White

2011-08-22T11:43:00.000-07:00

Take care

2011-08-19T00:29:00.001-07:00

Just going thru my phone & found this picture..

You give it constantly. Little & big.
You care and I take it.
Thanks for keeping me warm.

Muah muah muah*
Love you and all that good sht

ENTI #paid

2011-08-17T10:59:00.001-07:00

Just left from a performance @ the 4 Seasons

Made you convert

2011-08-15T23:30:00.001-07:00

I win :) . As usual lol

Something new, something borrowed & something blue

2011-08-14T23:09:00.000-07:00

can't leave 'em alone

2011-08-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

She:

It's only been three months and I already got it bad
So hood that I keep on coming back
My girlfriend's telling me I don't know how to act
But I'm telling them baby bye fall back
He's so good an he knows how to love me
But so hood an he's so heavy in the streets
He's my dude and you better get used to things
And I don't care what you say about me
They say

That he does it with the best, runs it in the west
Tatted on his chest
I like it , I like it
And they say (that he's gonna hurt me)
Just wait and see (but they don't know me)
'cause I am what he wants his girl and I love it

He:

The more I get the more my ambition tells there more
I'll move an A for that girl I'll move ahead on that boy
Then I flip that (double up) kick back (cuddle up)
Your friends try to confuse but you know what
My intentions are good, I can't help it I'm hood
I wouldn't change if I could, you shouldn't tell me I should
Baby you should take me as I am
An be happy you're my girl 'cause I'm happy I'm your man

full crate & mar; a favorite

2011-08-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

he reminds me everyday

2011-08-11T08:42:00.000-07:00

sometimes 3 times a day,

sometimes more.

i love you too.

be on the look out

2011-08-11T00:47:00.000-07:00

losthrds x ckp

idea by: losthrds

coming out soon...

**I can live with out the fancy

2011-08-10T13:29:00.000-07:00

but i'm constantly in search of happiness
& the struggle that goes with it too

Excuses

2011-08-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

Just stop, because you're making yourself look like a fool.

A great song on repeat

2011-08-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

These last few day's have been feeling amazing lately.

So happy with where I am.
Or maybe I just have the tolerance

to accept everything that is going

on in my life right now.

Either way, i'm Happy.

Got my own

2011-08-06T00:49:00.001-07:00

Finally got my own baby. Perfect for me.

2011-08-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

How do you emotionally invest yourself into someone you hardly know, get to know their family, introduce them to your whole family, and then just move on to the next one the next month?

On top of all that, how do you think your kids feel about this?

this is all they know. So to them, its normal.

Where's your mom?
"Out."

As always..

7

2011-08-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

Leave you, I'm not meant to

2011-07-31T18:45:00.001-07:00

simple

2011-07-29T12:08:00.000-07:00

I can't stop the rain

But I can ease your pain for a little while
I can sing a song that will make you smile

I can do those things and more

But let me tell you

I can't save the world

But I can do the thing I am called to do
And I hope that it will inspire you

Cause that's what love is for

hmm

2011-07-28T17:33:00.000-07:00

this isn't right.

The final hours

2011-07-26T02:48:00.001-07:00

of being a teenager. So what does that mean?

I'm officially going to put my teen years behind me. Still a young lady, but more lady then young I would like to think. The goal now is to take my responsibilities another step further. Getting the job done as soon as possible (not procrastinating), knowing when to put the fun after the work (instead of vice-versa, which led to procrastinating), and putting in more effort into making my life happier.

I guess in all, i'm trying to make my life a little more stress-free with better time management. Spacing out your time really is the key to success. Well, that along side good goals, and high-achievements.

During my year of being 19 I've gotten real comfortable with having fun. I guess because it came a lot easier not having to sneak out, or drink illegally, or smoke illegally (no wait, its still illegal), but having that title of being "of age" gave a lot of pass to opportunities of fun. I fully took advantage of it. Not that it was a bad thing, but yes I had my fun and I'm glad I did. Because now that I got a lot of the partying out of the way I've seen to bore myself out of that club scene.. well a little. So the temptation of going out to a club and intoxicating myself with liquor has watered down. Yes i'm still going to go out, i'm not against it, but i'm also not all for it.

Better things to be done with that time, like sleep :)

But in these last final hours of being a teenager what am I going to do?

Well as of right now I'm pulling an all-nighter to get this project done as Art Director. Tomorrow we will present our group mock-up. Hopefully get some filming squeezed in there. Head back to surrey for a meeting for with an up-coming clothing company (which reminds me I should start my business card.) Kick back with the boyfriend and await in good company for the beginning of the legendary years of being in my 20s'.

Club's & Alcohol unnecessary.

And what will I do with my 1st few hours of being 20?
My loving boyfriend has a surprise awaiting my celebration. I'll probably get some rest. Sleep till the afternoon to catch up on this night i'm missing now. Cook myself a good breakfast. Head to my Spa Utopia appointment with my best-friend. Relax and take in every moment of my first professional massage ever (sadly, I know!) and then probably work. I'm not pushing for anyone to take my shift, I should and don't really mind working. I mean, responsibilities first right? Work & then play.

Okay enough blogging, back to work.

A Lesson

2011-07-24T02:28:00.001-07:00

My favorite artist. No words, just a story.

It's ok if you don't like it. Because its not for you, its for me. & I love it. I'm going to get it as soon as I feel like I can.

I'm constantly learning life's lessons, always will until the day I die.

Its more than just a piece of art. It really is a piece of art.
& I know I just repeated myself but what i'm trying to say is that things may be the same, but its the way that you go at them, present them, approach them, talk about them, that makes the difference.

So I'm okay if you don't like it. Maybe you just don't understand it the way I do. I just pray your willing your try.

Logo Variations

2011-07-20T10:51:00.000-07:00

Across the Sea:

Here are a few of my logo variations for my portfolio 1 class. The business I've created is a Tea shop called Across the Sea. The shop would be selling imported teas, hence the name. The ship in these logo's is called "The Empress of China," the first ship to trade goods between China & America.

Still in contemplation if that last logo is working for me, and the 3 packages I have to put together. But as of right now that will be the logo that I'll be using.

MORE TIME

2011-07-19T03:23:00.000-07:00

RED BULL is doing a really good job with helping me finish my homework.

SERIOUSLY, if you think there isn’t enough time in a day, your wrong. You just haven’t found it. Its hidden behind a locked door, and Red Bull is the key!

sometimes confuse "needs" with "wants"

2011-07-15T22:53:00.001-07:00

2011-07-15T11:12:00.000-07:00

crazy sexy cool

2011-07-14T16:49:00.001-07:00

These are just ghost that broke my heart before I met you

2011-07-13T00:22:00.000-07:00

This song doesn't really relate. I just haven't heard Laura Marling in a while.

They happy

2011-07-12T01:16:00.000-07:00

I'm happy

Pointless

2011-07-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

Let's be adult's here.

(If I could have this conversation with you I would.) I just don't understand why you keep doing this to yourself. I don't really know you anymore. A lot of change happens in a short amount of time. But from what I remember you hated all the drama, all the fights and secrecy it brought. For some reason you keep it going. From what i'm hearing it is as if you like the drama? Maybe that keeps your life interesting. But I know it also stresses you out. You could be happy you know? You do know that right?

A conversation is pointless with no response. It was just a thought.

it's a true story

2011-07-08T15:46:00.000-07:00

running

2011-07-06T00:27:00.000-07:00

2nd day of classes

sporadic

summer

2011-07-04T09:12:00.001-07:00

As if everything is fine

2011-07-03T10:11:00.001-07:00

I'm starting to care less and less about our relationship. I've tried calling you plenty of times, leaving messages, calling your work and you had no intentions of getting back to me. Now that your going away and need a favor from me that's when you decide to get back to me? You're so full of sht! And you have no clue. Don't ever come crying to me saying that you think about us and it hurts you. It's your fcking fault you pushed us away. You chose him and that life style over us. And I know you're happy without us. You haven't done sht for us in years besides making more feuds for our family to run on.

Stepping into that house without you home made me want to trash everything nice you had. But I know better than to ruin my own family's lives.

Sent from my iPhone

TY: Number 33

2011-07-01T11:32:00.001-07:00

I'm not sure if you've seen my worst. We've had times where we could possibly call it my worst. But I can't say that that was it. Every time its unintentional. Every time i'm under the influence. Every time, nothing actually happens. But we argue because of the possibilities that could happen and how close it gets. And if you're reading this and thinking "omg she cheated on him?!" you're thinking of the wrong thing. If someone were to intentionally hurt my man through me, while under the influence, lets just say I wouldn't be able to tell. Because while i'm in that state i'm hella selfish. I didn't get what he said, I "shhh'd" him, and I walked away. No harm intended. The thought you had in mind wouldn't have occurred to me at all. I had to let you know and understand where I was coming from. I wasn't going to let you take me home, for me to go to bed angry, and for you to drive away pissed. My love for us is so much stronger than my own pride. That back there didn't mean sht, and didn't have to mean anything if you didn't let it bug you. That is exactly what he wants and you're giving it to him on a silver platter. You let me speak and i'm glad you listened. All I need to know is that you'll still love me when i'm at my worst because if you're still here you already know it will be more than worth it. You and I can really understand each other once we let our pride down, just for a minute. We constantly have our own view points about so many things which leads to vicious debates and rebuttals. But that's okay, because we continuously find ways to agree in the end.

As long as this love is stronger than our pride.

ladders

2011-06-29T23:44:00.001-07:00

I forgot for a minute

2011-06-29T12:42:00.000-07:00

But, I remember what I want. I already have it. I just got to keep growing with it.

Awwwweee yeeeaa

I don't know what I want

2011-06-26T02:09:00.001-07:00

I only know what I don't want.

Oh hey, you look kind of familiar.

2011-06-25T11:41:00.000-07:00

Had no idea Lando was coming to vancouver for WOD.

And didn't really know who exactly this fellow was at first. I knew he was from archiTEKS when we both took JP's class. But went to the club & he remembered me, I will forever know Alan Truong.

Lastly, the guy that I've talked about this with for a couple months is finally here. Mr. Domkey Dimatteo, welcome to Vancouver.

Honey

2011-06-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

"I don't think you know how much I love you"

I have an idea, I'm sure we're on the same page.

Perfect summer day

2011-06-23T00:23:00.000-07:00

run

cousin's

laundry

lax

friends

smoke up

park

pub

down town

friends

dance

friend

boyfriend

smoke up pt.2

paint shopping

Chinese take out

grocery shopping

bf's crib

eat

lax

home

sleep

tmr. repeat?

Tracing your ink

2011-06-21T13:41:00.001-07:00

The last of my film.

SWEET DELIGHT

2011-06-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

It took so long to get here. Now that I'm finally here I don't even know what to do.

Time to start planning.
Time for more dancing =)
My hearts beating a little faster haha. Oh if dance was a boy.
Still gives me butterflies!

Let the growing begin!

2011-06-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

#poser

What to wear tonight?

2011-06-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

Confidence.

Friday, my day, we take it to the highway. High? WAAAY

2011-06-18T14:16:00.000-07:00

Hella early morning kicked into a busy afternoon. Last class of the semester ended at 530. The beginning to my "summer (2week) break."

EXHAUSTED more than ever I was on my way home. Thankful I didn't have to bus home, baby picks me up at the train. Relaxed at my place for a little bit, finally had my first (and only, which ends up being a horrible mistake) meal of the day. Headed to Jel's place. Some what got ready there, picked up tiff, and some alcohol. Drove down to tunnel, did some pre-drinking. No wait, did A LOT of pre-drinking which fcked me up. I didn't realize how much I drank. I just kept drinking because it felt good. No homework to worry about, no work the next day, out with the girls, and bout to see our boyfriends go on stage, yeah. I was feeling good.

Then it started really getting to me. I couldn't even handle being in the club. The loudness with a mixture of sporadic lights constantly flashing in my face was tripping me out way too much. Tried to go outside, but it was so cold, and rainy. So I go across the street to goldies. Where I now am remembering I had a VERY intense conversation about the riot with this man. I'm pretty sure I was talking way too loud, and everyone who was in there could hear me. Probably something they're used to being across the street from a club and all. But it was fun. Finally collected myself together, well sorta, and went back in.

By then I was just in zombie mode. Doing what I had to do, but not thinking, just going with it.
The rest of the night was pretty blurry. But I got home safely, passed out and the next morning.. had the biggest hangover I ever had. It probably would have been better if I puked, but I'm not a puker.

I'm pretty bad when it comes to heavy drinking.
I'll just stick to hemp.

that reminds me..

cudi

was

AMAZING

I don't even know where to begin. Fck it, I don't want to begin.

(haven't blogged like this in a while, and after reading it I know why. lol oh well)

I need a break

2011-06-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

work, school, stanley

school, kid cudi,

school, tunnel.

2 week break!!

& and then back to school..

Year End

2011-06-14T23:35:00.000-07:00

The show was about to end with awards.
Then everyone just left before it even had a chance to start.
It just ended, no closure.

..No closure.

Marvins Room

2011-06-14T14:33:00.000-07:00

how many times can you say "Fuck it"

2011-06-13T06:13:00.000-07:00

fell in love with a bitch, who slowly became a good girl.

yeah i guess there are benefits to being a bitch, but fuck.
does it really got to be like this?

or does it?

2011-06-12T22:02:00.000-07:00

...my god.

can't wait till this week is over.

It only gets better with you

2011-06-10T20:15:00.000-07:00

If i could do better
then you can do better too.
But i don’t want better
cause i’m only better with you.

In a relationship she wants 3 things:
1. Eyes that wont cry.
2. Lips that won’t lie.
3. Love that won’t die.

flaw

2011-06-06T23:03:00.000-07:00

how is it that my mind changes so quickly..

_____________

..how was it that your mind changed so quickly?